Good Health Praise God

I didn’t always have it together. But, I knew God was working even it seemed like He was silent.

I wasn’t always “strong”. There were days where I complained to God asking “why is this still happening?” Or “you’re a God who can do the impossible?!” Or “why won’t you heal me already?”… Believe me, I’ve thought so many questions and just kept asking God “WHY?”

Jesus Knew the Outcome

Here’s the thing, I knew if Jesus wanted to bring me home during the difficult process, He would have. Truth is, He still can. But, He wakes me up everyday with breath in my lungs for a reason. I have a purpose on earth and He isn’t finished with me yet. Months prior ago, I wrote in my journal so many times asking God to heal me or that I would find out answers from doctors… sadly no answers were found… Even though God wasn’t answering my prayers at the time, I know He just wanted me to cling to Him and to trust Him.

It was extremely hard….It was difficult… No one can “prepare” you for a waiting season. For a length of time of “not knowing” anything…. A season where you have to rely solemnly on Him… It’s a test of faith… trust… There were times where I cried at work because I couldn’t handle it. I always felt like I was a burden to someone, because all I talked about was my issues. I was struggling…I just wanted to know there was hope…

Finally, August came around the corner. After a long wait of seeing different doctors and specialists for over a YEAR, this doctor asks me all my symptoms and then takes a good long look at me and says “you have any plans tonight?” I then proceed to say “No, we’re not busy.” She then says how she’s admitting me into the hospital to run LOTS of tests and start treatment IMMEDIATELY. My mother then cries tears of joy… I proceeded to hug her and she says “I’m supposed to be comforting you!” I then said, “Well, I’m not the one who’s crying…” ❤️

Feeling Appreciative

After leaving the hospital, I became more grateful for my life. The day we left, I looked myself in the mirror and said “this is how I’m supposed to look?” My mother replied with “yes!!” I knew I was sick… I knew for a long time. I just simply didn’t know how bad it was. I knew something was deeply wrong, but never could find out what the problem was..

I’ve heard a person can have a “life changing experience” in a hospital…well, that happened with me. I started having a different outlook on life. I felt GOOD. I was more THANKFUL for my life and I was HAPPY.

Thankful for my Families Support

Thankfully throughout the whole process, my family was there for me (they still are ❤️).

They saw everything that I went through and it hurt them knowing there wasn’t anything they could do. They had to wait for answers just like me… my family could see my body deteriorating and there wasn’t anything they could do.. I laughed it off all the time. That was my way of “dealing” with it and just trying to make myself “laugh through the struggle…”

Since having to cut out gluten for good, my family has been SO SUPPORTIVE! To be honest, it’s easier with their help and I’m very appreciative of it.

I will say, when I first was told I had to cut out gluten it was extremely difficult. I thought “I’ll never be able to eat bread again!!” Haha, wrong!! I eat gluten free bread and it’s good.

Learning to Love my Body

Growing up, I was always insecure about my belly pooch. I always wondered why mine looked “bigger” than the other girls. For years I searched for pills and workouts that would help my pooch “go away”.

After seeing an Integrative Medicine specialist, I was told my gut was inflamed. I was surprised. I never thought that could’ve been the issue… Then, while being in the hospital, I saw many different specialists along with a nutritionist. I got told I NEED to cut out gluten for good. So, I had no choice. Once I started, I noticed my pooch slowly but surely slim down. I’ll admit, I’ve started to feel more confident in my skin. I really want “bigger” muscles, but I know that will take time and I need to be patient with my body.

If there’s any advice I can give to someone, it’s don’t give up on God. Even if it seems like He’s been “quiet”, He’s working everything out!! I know circumstances can be hard… but He hasn’t given up on you, so don’t give up on Him 🙏