Good Health Praise God

The hardest part of this whole process is feeling “alone”. I know I’m not “alone” per say… I have my friends, family and Jesus, but it still isn’t easy.

Going through heartbreak is never easy… going from best friends, to talking everyday, to knowing that person like the back of your hand…. And then becoming “acquaintances” is the worst feeling. You now have to learn to live a life without the person you wanted to do life with. It HURTS.

Do I feel alone most days? Yes. Is it hard? Yeah, little bit. But I know God has a plan through this. God never promised it would be EASY. But scripture does say in Psalms 34:18 “The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

Just because I seem “happy” and look “fine” on the outside, doesn’t mean I’m not still struggling on the inside. “Singleness” isn’t what bothers me. What bothers me is the fact that I can’t “enjoy” my life now, because of the healing process due to my sickness and I’m still grieving the fact that I lost someone that I cared deeply about. I have no hate towards him. The breakup was needed, even though it sucked. Thankfully, we were very mature about it. But, it doesn’t mean I don’t still miss him.

I swear relationships when you’re trying to be an adult is HARD. You’re learning to be an ADULT. You’re trying to make adult DECISIONS. You’re trying to make it FINANCIALLY. You want KIDS & MARRIAGE, but want to find “the right one”. It’s HARD.

Do I like the season on loneliness that I’m in? No. But I know I’m in this season for a reason. God is definitely teaching me that I only need Him. I know God is working something out even though I don’t know whats going to happen. I know God is working while I’m still trying to make progress everyday. All I can do is cling to Him and trust Him during this hard time.

If you’re like me or have been in situation like me, you’re not alone. It will get better, it just takes time 🫶🙏